yup, there, i've said it.

let's go. my love. now that i've let go. what i know. what i need to know. on a need to know basis. trust. love. faith, trust pixie dust. i've confessed my fears. expressed my desires. what i need is now what i want. love. friendship. flowers. a garden. kitties. babies. to love and take care of those i love. support the man i love in what he does and make it better. to not think so much. trust him. trust time. trust myself. love. love. love. everything in its time and place.

why has my cousin changed her gmail status from "flaming catharsis" to "minion"? this is the last quesiton i have this evening. everything else is answered.


Today's Horoscope Leo
Hidden fears and repressed pain can come to the surface and have a positive impact on your closest relationships. This won't happen accidentally; it will require intention on your part. You must take the first step in order to give voice to what is holding you back. Keep your communication focused on what you know to be real, for speculative thinking can lead you astray. Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Manuever

Refusing what you are given
You want things to be the old way
Resisting the revolutions
Changes are coming anyway

Unable to thrive to change
The mask doesn't veil anymore
Strip yourself of all your riddles
Do not reject all the lessons

You're not a child anymore
You're not your former self
And what's reality now?
The tools you've used to get by
Aren't the keys to your tomorrows

The wind is blowing
The sea is shifting
The storm is rumbling
Darkness descending
The gales are sweeping
The waves threatening
Horizon is grim
Tempest arriving





Hey skipper, look ahead, navigate
Hey skipper, look ahead, navigate
Hey skipper, use your head, manoeuvre
Hey skipper, look ahead, navigate

Oh the winds can blow but
your sails can defeat it
The storms may rumble,
we all know your hull is fit

That sea is rough now
Mind you do not slip
Could destroy your ship
Put a nail in it

When darkness descends,
Your radar will be your sight
The waves may unleash,
your mast will stay standing high

You are the captain
Do you feel equipped?
You have now taken
The helm of your ship.

Stereolab

i had a dream...

i had a dream...
Originally uploaded by zenog.

In the Age of the Old Soul

I do not choose to dream; there cometh on me
Some strange old lust for deeds.
As to the nerveless hand of some old warrior
The sword-hilt or the war-worn wonted helmet
Brings momentary life and long-fled cunning,
So to my soul grown old -
Grown old with many a jousting, many a foray,
Grown old with namy a hither-coming and hence-going -
Till now they send him dreams and no more deed;
So doth he flame again with might for action,
Forgetful of the council of elders,
Forgetful that who rules doth no more battle,
Forgetful that such might no more cleaves to him
So doth he flame again toward valiant doing.

Ezra Pound

Japanese plum

Japanese plum
Originally uploaded by hamapenguin.

spring is springing. rather early it looks like!!

oh here we go...

You may not be able to enjoy yourself today until you finish your work. However, don't look for a parent figure to tell you what to do. There is no threat of punishment, but if you don't do what you must, no one else will either. Be sensible and keep to yourself as long as you are making progress.



January 29, 2007
The Impossible Dream
Right In Front Of You

When it comes to the things we want, there always seems to be an endless list. No matter how many times we get something off that list, we add new things to replace it. In life, this drama of wanting and getting and wanting is all part of the dance. The things we want motivate us to get up and get them.

And yet, at the same time, we can torment ourselves with our wanting, especially when we want something we can't have or can't find. It is in cases like these that it might be fruitful to entertain the idea that maybe what you really want is right in front of you. Maybe you are using this desire you can't fulfill to distract you from truly engaging the blessings you already have. It may seem like that doesn't make sense, yet we do it all the time. It may be easier to see in other people than to see it in ourselves. We have all heard our friends wishing they were more this or less that, and looking at them we see clearly that they are everything they are wishing they were. We know people who have wonderful partners and yet envy you yours. We wish we could give these people a look at their situations from our perspective so that they could see that what they want really is right in front of them.

It's not too far-fetched to consider that we might be victims of the same folly. It can be scary to have what we want. We get caught up in the chase and forget to enjoy the beauty right in front of us-like a child who never wants the toy she has in her hand but always the one just out of her reach. Take a moment today to consider the many things you are holding in the palm of your hand and how you might best play with them.

January 26, 2007
Unexpected Enlightenment
You Never Know Who You'll Meet

Our individual journeys take us into many unexpected situations where we encounter a wide variety of people-some quite like ourselves and some very different. We cannot anticipate these meetings, but we can make the most of them when they take place. When we are courteous as a matter of course and open-minded in our assessment of the individuals whose lives briefly touch our own, we are more apt to stumble upon surprising gems of wisdom that open our eyes to new worlds of possibility. Every person we meet can affect us profoundly, just as every situation we find ourselves in can teach us something new.

To fully embrace this fact, it is essential that we acknowledge that everyone is valuable in their own way and capable of expanding our horizons. Since we never know when we will happen upon those individuals who will unveil truths before us, we should extend to all people the same generous level of kindness, care, compassion, and understanding. When we assume everyone we meet is special and treat them as such, we can develop a strong rapport quickly. By making an effort to adopt a positive attitude toward others at all times, we ensure that our emotions do not blind us to wisdom that may be lurking in difficult or distressing situations. We are accordingly receptive to knowledge that comes to us in the form of examples, advice, and direct teaching.

These brief relationships ultimately have the potential to enrich our lives in a very concrete way. But the wisdom we gain is proportional to the attention we pay to the world around us. The responsibility is on us to maintain a state of awareness that allows us to recognize when we are in the presence of someone consciously or unconsciously in possession of knowledge that will change us significantly. When we are cognizant of the potential for unexpected enlightenment, we make a habit of turning strangers into friends, thus ensuring that we are never without a font of wisdom from which to draw.

Anemone center

Anemone center
Originally uploaded by David Lev.

goodnight wishes. goodnight sleep

I have traveled far, these twenty years and six, and have arrived where I am now. The Lion Hunter. Chasing down the Sun. Calling out His Name. I speak not sense, the Truth. What cannot be proven but is Known. My ways as skeptic, Doubting Thomas, have proven futile. When I know my nature. I know my true purpose. Music maker, siren, artist, oracle, scribe. Let me be kept in perfect safety. Let all those who know me, respect me, my insights, though at times they may appear to be balderdash. I must remember and hold in high esteem, My Purpose, the Right Way, the Goodness I know is righteous. Love. Kindness. Patience. Forgiveness. Blessings on this earth. Blessings on this house. Blessings. I have been kept, protected, shielded for this purpose. To go forth and be an example of strength, temperance and grace.

Learning, remembering, holding me dear to me as I do my child. You will all be safe and protected my loves. My children. Christopher, will have a beautiful day. Beautiful one, I will see you so very soon! There are so many good influcences which will come to protect you. They are there even now looking out for you. Blessed daughters. Blessed baby. Brilliant open love. Big hearted beauty. It will all be perfect if you only BELIEVE.

Relax the tension. Release the stress. Slow down. Take your time. For it is YOUR TIME. This is when Joy is discovered. When she rises from her deep and solemn slumber and remembers her true nature. Raises a sparkling hand to the sky and offers her gifts freely to the world.

Disarm them, Joy, with your Smile.